Saturday, May 10, 2008

stressed out...

It's my first blog entry and I decided to create one to have an outlet for my thoughts and feelings...

It's been 20 days now since my sister and mom went away and I mis them so much. I know it was for the good of the entire family but I just cant help missing my little sister... I hope she's adjusting well to her new environment.

It's been 4 days since my eligibility letter arrived. I've been waiting for it for almost 6 months but right now I'm having second thoughts. I feel like I'm not yet prepared (or am I just chickening out?). I might be doing well during review classes but no one knows what may happen during the exam proper. I want to take the exam yet I'm afraid to fail plus the expenses for that exam alone is too much.

I think I've been pressuring and stressing myself too much. I've been thinking about the exam and reviewing everyday... thinking about my family...worried about some problems... trying hard to provide answers to questions of some people. I need o relax and unwind. Maybe a movie or a date with friends will do me well. I kinda miss my friends since most of us have work already. We seldom get the chance to hang out.

I miss work. I miss taking care of the sick. I miss being a nurse. I wish I could go back to work soon. The faster I accomplish these exams the faster I can go back to work. Just a few more months and I'll be done. I can do this!

It's Mother's Day in a few hours... Just wanted to greet my mom a happy happy mother's day! Thank you for bringing be into this world, for bringing me up and for being the best mom there could ever be! I love you Ma!

To all the mothers all over the world, HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!

now back to my review...